Crossroads of Destiny

looks like it has been MONTHS since i posted in this msn space.. after i read all my previous entries.. i realized that time really flies.. i can still clearly recall the first day of form 3.. when we were all seperated to different classes.. and then we're all like sooo anxious or excited for pmr.. now its already the end of the year.. next year will yet again, be a new year for all of us. maybe some of us are switching to other schools, or maybe another state, some of us might not even see each other again.. who knows.

 

oh well.. juz felt like posting in this msn space.. till then.. cheers.

 

good luck all SPMers, do your best!

yeah.. finally back from the 5-day 'perkapol' course.. missed everyone so much.. but it was quite syok.. diz is my second year so we get to fire the M-16.. and we had to sleep in tents inside a small rubber estate.. lol.

 

first day we set up our camp.. then divided into different platoons.. diz year perkhemahan group only 8 boyz.. and there was 10 platoons so none of us was in the same platoon..

 

second day we had jalan lasak.. me, mean yuan and chan ran together.. somethin like rentas desa.. around 8km or so la.. our stamina was like shit so we ran for a while then walk and so on..

 

third day we did ronda pandu arah.. we get to venture into the jungle in groups with a compass and we had to find 5 checkpoints on trees then back to the starting point.. it was kinda fun..

 

fourth day was what we all waited long and anxiously for.. shooting training!! haha.. our weapon was the M-16.. 10 REAL bullets given.. 5 in each magazine.. and we had to shoot a target around 100 metres away.. the target is kinda small and we have to lie on the ground to shoot. the sound of the shot is so damn terrer.. 2 or 3 shots then your ears will become like half-deaf.. the gun is not very easy to handle.. i think its 2.38kg without a magazine if im remember.. anyways i shot all 10 bullets and guess what? i hit nothing. LoL.. was kinda disappointed but the weather was very hot when it was my turn.. i was sweating like a donkey and most of the sweat ended up in both my eyes.. causing me to close my eyes.. and wearing spectacles oso made the shooting harder.. therefore i shot nothing.. haha.

 

the whole course was enjoyable.. and oso challenging somehow.. but it was really fun doing all those stuff although sometimes we get pumping punishment for being late or whateva.. haha.. really hope to go again next year..

wow.. had fun today.. finally da first official basketball practice.. haha.. under 15 team vs under 18 team.. haha.. quite a fun match.. although i din score any goals.. lolz.. altho we lost (forgot da score.. lol.. i think our score was about 6 to 10 points diff.. kaka..) paul was da mvp and he was like an insane buffalo on da court.. damn power.. hahaha.. haih..

 

next mth.. hell - kursus induksi.. lolz.. damn syok our kursus clash wit exam.. altho have to retake lolzz.. den basketball tourney.. really hope can pass da preliminary match.. at least not so sia sui.. juz can hope dat our opponent isnt sin min or other terrer schlz.. ahakz.. aahh.. dats all la.. enuff of my stupid babbling..

yeah.. exam ended 2 days ago.. finally there goes all the stress of nt being able to play pc games.. LoL!! haih.. this exam quite ok.. not too bad.. 'cept for chinese n geo.. haha.. and seems dat this time my bm went wrong.. lol.. gt full marks 4 english.. not surprised haha cuz this paper wasn't much of a difficulty.. ("lansi.." says Paul.. hahaha..) 52 for chinese which isnt surprising either.. hahaha.. well it turned out as i expected.. kinda.. lol.. and history turned out better than i expected.. haha.. i dont really care abt marks.. bt i've begun to think abt the consequences of nt getting gd results 4 pmr.. *shivers*

 

got the 'hippopotamus' injection yesterday.. haha.. (its anti-tetanus.. lol).. din hurt at all when da nurse injected.. but after a few hours can feel a bit lenguh.. haha..

 

haih.. nth more to say.. bored.. i miss my shoes.. sob.. and seems dat lotsa ppl r playing o2jam lately.. come challenge me! lolzz..

a lot of things happened during 2005.. and in 2006 too.. and suddenly i felt like saying somethin abt it..

 

at this age.. well.. we're not supposed to hav a relationship.. as most parents and adults and teachers say.. i sort of agree to dat.. and of course there's no doubt.. at THIS time.. we teenagers tend to hav feelings for the other gender.. and then so on.. the main reason most adults n teachers disagree in a teenage schooltime  relationship is that it might affect our studies and some other reasons.. most teenagers ignore that and carry on having a relationship.. well.. i honestly do not hav a problem wit that.. but as far as i hav seen.. it causes a handful of problems.. especially to the girls..

obviously.. most boys would want to hav a relationship.. probably the effect of developing hormones and all those sh*t.. and the effect of those cantonese dramas too.. haha.. well most boys take liking to a girl too fast.. or in othr words too unseriously.. for example they suddenly feel dat this particular girl is nice.. cute.. kind and etc.. then they will juz go on and 'tackle' the girl.. well most girls wont juz fall in love wit a guy juz like dat.. but so when the guy juz 'mendampingi' dat girl all the time.. eventually the girl will also like dat guy.. then soon enough the guy would ask to hav a relationship.. and so on.. but then when things go wrong and it comes to a breakup.. *Edited:[the gals cant seem to accept the whole thing..]* as a conclusion.. most (most, not all)  boys my age wouldnt take a relationship very seriously.. cuz they only want to hav a try.. somethin like dat..

well boys aren't rock statues.. they hav feelings too.. they sometimes might get hurt also..

 

if a girl doesnt want to hav a relationship.. then dont giv the guy too much hope.. or u can tell dat guy terus terang dat u do not want to hav a relationship.. as i always say: the more hope u put in something the more sadness u get when dat something goes wrong..

and girls shouldnt put too much hope in a relationship either.. unless you're 200% sure dat the guy is definitely serious abt it.. or else the outcome of a breakup will b devastating..

 

a girl's heart is much fragile than a boy's.. they get hurt more easily.. so boys.. dont treat a relationship as a game.. even if u feel dat the relationship ain't serious.. u do not know how the girl feels abt it.. so b careful before u start a relationship.. and same to the girls..

 

this 'essay' above is dedicated to all my frenz..

 

anyways.. MY & XY.. ES & SY.. wish u guys all the best.. hope u guys can hav an everlasting.. sadness-free relationship!! ^^

 

and to all my frenz out there.. form 3 form 4 form 5 etc and even online ones.. and especially my old frenz since primary.. haoliang.. cat.. ann.. z.joo.. yiming.. i really apprieciate u all.. i know sometimes i may get onto ur nerves.. but thx for being my frenz.. hope our frenship can last till the end of time!!

 

-oh if what i said offends someone.. then i am truly/terribly sorry..-

 

[love is blind..]

[love cannot be forced..]

[to love someone doesnt mean dat u hav to b wit dat someone..]

[a relationship is abt 2 persons..]

heh.. as expected.. we lost to PKBM.. not bad jugak la.. 2nd place.. so damn stressed juz now.. haha.. if tak dapat diz year den sure malu like shit.. god damnit my skin become more charcoal-ish.. my legs hurt like shit.. n blisterz on my feet.. pundek betui.. kakaka..

 

diz year sultanah oso not bad.. 2nd place lerh.. hehz.. diz year sportz day was kinda fun.. haha..

 

oh shit.. i forgot.. how am i gonna sit for exam next week?! x_x;